My Lookback on 2008...

ok. so starting off I'd like to say the year 2008 showed ->[ME]<-  ANYYYTHING and EVERYTHING is possible!! I've been to many manny  different places [THIS] year. Jan. 1st 2008 I fucking woke up in a condo  in Manhattan with the WORST fucking hang over I'll probably ever  experience! Even though I really hated the hang over part. . . I really  loved the fact [THAT] I wus SOMEWHERE diff doing SOMETHING diff from the  previous year! lolol!! [THIS] yr. I'll be home so fuxx wid ya boiii!!!!  (YEAAAAAA *SLOW (_!_) GUCCI VOICE*) lol!! But yeaaa. [THIS] year wus one  of ->[MY]<- most life changing years and looking back I've done sooooooo  much stuff [THAT] I'm super thankful for! [GOOD] and bad! Man I've been  alll around Atlanta (of course! I used to live [THERE].) I've been to a  few cities in Alabama. ([WHERE] I swear I met ->[MY]<- future wife! lol)  North Carolina. Souf Carolina. Tennesse. Arkansas (aint [SHIT] in  arkansas but 2 old ppl a golden retriever and a walmart. but hell lol  atleast I kno never to go back! lmfao!) Texas. I seriously need to look  @ a map. lol! cuz I'm having trouble remembering! o yeaaaa FLORIDA!!  I've beeeen sooo many [DAMN] places. seen sooo many things. and met soooo many  people! Some of those people I am now very close friends with. some of  [THEM] I wish I would've kept sum type of contact with. but many of  [THEM] changed ->[MY]<- life! and I'm sure I did the same for some of  [THEM]! But on sum real stuff I did all of [THIS] with little to ((  NOOOOOOOO! )) money! lol don't ask ->[ME]<- [HOW] cuz I'd'fucking'k! the  [SHIT] jus happend! that's [WHY] its sooo amazing to ->[ME]<-!! But moving off and on! [WHEN] I moved back  home I road the greyhound. (I wus broke (( W T F )) u expect). But  [THAT] 20 sumthin hour ride really helped ->[ME]<- realize [HOW] special  life is and [HOW] much [THERE] is to know about out in [THIS] crazy ass  world!! I gained sooo much knowledge. and sooo much life skill in soo  many diff. areas [THAT] I never thought were relevant until now. And  from [THAT] day on I decided I wus alllllways gonna do (( W T F )) I  WANTED to do and not give 2 shits. damns. hells. fucks. (wuddever word u  feel most comfortable using) about [WHAT] [WHO] thought or [HOW] [THEY]  feel! cuz [THIS] is ->[MY]<- life and I will live it according to  ->[MY]<- level of happiness!! lol! ->[MY]<- life will not make sum1 else  as happy! and u can add vice versa on [THERE] too! lol! sum ppl may be  happy ((FOR)) ->[ME]<- but I do wut I want bcuz that's wut coats ->[MY]<- happiness @ the end of the day! I don't do  wud I "have to" bcuz everybody else is doin [WHAT] [THEY] have to do! [FUCK] [THAT] [SHIT] I guess I'll be the  odd ball and play [THIS] odd# I drew @ birth! lol!! but since I've been home (March) I've dropped 2 Mixtapes. Started  ->[MY]<- studio back up. Currently reaching completion  status wif the group album. Performed numerous diff places. Helped  others with [THEIR] mixtapes and albums and stuff. And ummmm I've met  sum really kool [NEW] friends [WHO] mean a lot to ->[ME]<-!!! Some more  than others. but [WHO] cares! I don't like ppl all like [THAT]! so yall  mofo's r lucky!! lol!! I'd rather have a goldfish and a tv than 100  niggas hanging out @ ->[MY]<- [DAMN] house! I'm jus sayin! ppl began to  get annoying after being around for so long and jus need to hitch hike  sum fucking [WHERE] far far away from ->[ME]<-! lolol jk! I [♥]  People! People are great! lol! [HOW] [THEY] jus change and evolve or  [HOW] sum of em jus always stay the same no matter (( W T F )) happpens!  lol!!! But all I'm saying is look back @ 2008 (not 2007, 2006, 1994,  etc.) and really think about evvverything u did. if u can't remember  then u aint do [SHIT]! so make sum changes and do sum [SHIT] in 2009!! summa yall I don't  even need ur #'s or email addresses or nuffin. I know exactly [WHERE] the  hell to find yall muddafuqqas @. which is semi-good! but [THAT] [SHIT]  is baddddddddd! nigga do sumfin different wid ur life! even if its jus  takin a diff route home. or wherever the hell u go2 a lot! [THAT] is a  big ass jumpstart! lol! There's soooo much out here [THAT] [WE] all need  to be a part of. directly or indirectly!! 2009 should be all about  change! Don't dooo the same [SHIT] u did last year!!! Try listening to  sum [NEW] music. Watch sum [SHIT] on tv u would never watch. Change  ur hairstyle up if u had [THAT] same look since the 9th grade! see [HOW]  [GOOD] it feels to do sum different [SHIT]! lolol!! Got [DAMN]!! lol!  Gurls talk 2 a diff kind of nigga u would never expect urself to talk  to! see [HOW] much [THAT] nigga excites [YOU] buz he's not JUST like the  last 35 niggas u wus in a relationship on facebook wit! lol! same for  niggas!! And Shiddd couples start having sex different ways n diff  places! don't worry bout getting caught! lol thas wud makes it fun!  lolol! Hell cheat once or twice if u aint married! l M a 0 o 0 o 0 . .  !! explore the world!! Cuz summa yall mofos been wid the saaaaaaaaaame  ass muddafuqqa since u wus in 3rd grade and don't even know [HOW] to  conversate right wit other ppl cuz u so used to [THAT] same fucker in yo  face all day everyday!! GIVE DAT MUDDAFUQQA A FREE CHEATING PASS ONCE  EVERY 6 MONTHS! yall niggas just GO TOGETHER! lol! Stop akkin like yall  married wid children and see wud its like to feel sumbody else for a hot  second! Just to see if das REALLY how u want to live the rest of yo  [DAMN] life!! Cuz summa yall are blind wit 20/20 vision!!! Don't wait  til u mad @ each other to cheat! lol! do it [WHEN] yall happy! and  "loving" each other!! lol!!! I knooooooo summa yall is thinkin. [THIS]  nigga can't be serious!!!! but I'm dead ass like homo dudes! =x (no  homo) lmmfaoo!! [YOU] got2 Get out and get in the know!!! know more  people. know more places. know more everydamnthing!!! (yea das 1 word  so!) Stop f'n worrying about "wud if sumthing go wrong"! (( W T F ))  [SHIT] IS SUPPOSED TO GO WRONG!!!!!! [HOW] THE HELL IS [SHIT] SUPPOSED  TO GO RIGHT IF IT NEVER GOES WRONG?!?!? (I'm jus sayin) lol! Step oudda  ur comfort zone a few times! And. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .  . . . *****STOPPPP!! DOINGG!!! THE SAAAAAAAME!! [SHIT]!!***** PLEASE!!!!!!!

Sooo I think I have it all figured out... lol!!

ummm sooo. ok. yea. lol i almost forgot. but arrite now.
i was typin to a female i know a liddo bit ago. 
she. (like just about every other human) is having....
i guess we'll call them "relationship problems".
okaayy so now check this out. 
shee told me she's had "the best of both worlds" and that females are sneaky and (believe it or not) tell more lies and does more cheating than a male. and the reason why this is true is because females are more complicated than males and she can see through males like its nothing. sooo my reply wus. "soo u think" lol! not saying that she cant see thru males. but females arent very hard to figure out. (atleast not for me.) but blah blah blahh ok now look. i explained to her that I am FAR from a gay male. but I myself have been apart of "the best of both worlds". "WHY IS THIS SO DRE" u ask? for those who dont know me. i'll give u a liddo insight on ME! lol I (when in an environment of one or more strangers) dont say very much. in fact. i probably say nothing bcuz i am too busy observing those around me. and in the mist of my lifelong observing of humans. lol i tend to observe all of my male/female friends and fam (and even strangers when i have the oppurtunity to) and things that go on in their relationships with the opposite sex. i observe what happens. why it happens. and what the aftereffect is. if things turn negative i began look at who is the blame. who wus actually @ fault. whats done to resolve the situation (if its ever resolved) and what could have been done to avoid the situation.
okay now. what we are gonna focus on today class (LMAO) is why problems occur in ANY relationship/friendship. okayyyy! U READY!??!? lol who cares if u r cuz igaf!!!!!!!!! Im gonna continue anyway! ok. now. what i am gonna say is gonna apply to EVERYBODY in sum way. shape. form. or fashion. idgaf WHO u are! the BIGGEST problem that WE have in this life of sin is FEAR! yeaaa nigga FEAR!!!! lol We as humans FEAR things regardless of how weak. or how strong we are. FEAR is an emotion we can NEVER deny no matter how tuff WE act. We FEAR LOSS. We FEAR PAIN. We FEAR GIVING TOO MUCH OR GIVING TOO LITTLE. So in turn. MOST of US lie. cheat. deceive. pretend. etc. We do allllll of these diff things (most of the time in a non-purposeful manner) in an attempt to protect ourselves and our belongings AND/OR to keep those we want in our lives around. but what most of us have failed to realize is the TRUTH will always be the best resolution for EVERY situation. EVEN if the lie sounds sooooooooooooooooo much better. Especially in the cases of those who want this great thing we all call LOVE to exist in their life. here is an EXACT quote from me in the conversation with the female earlier.........
"when lies are involved there's no such thing as love

love is never complicated

love is the most easy emotion to deal with

99.9% of the time when people are use the word LOVE is not really in reference to actual LOVE"

If you ACTUALLY. REALLY. TRULY LOVE SOMEONE! U will do nothing that will result in u being in the liars shoes, and if u just so happen to slip up. u will realize that lies will only make things worse. LIES = MOMENTARILY HAPPINESS. wuddabout when they find out the truth. or u slip up? THEN WHAT?! MORE LIES?!?!? MORE PAIN?!?!? MORE PROBLEMS?!?!? RIGHT!?!? lol!! The way I see it is this. Its Always better to tell the TRUTH regardless of how much it may hurt. because in the long run. The SMALLEST lie can hurt more than the HARSHEST TRUTH. real shit! besides. the truth is always much easier to forgive in the long run. ie. You cheat. You get caught. U admit u fucked up. tell the truth about wat happend. U cause sum1 pain. (pause 'to be continued) ok suppose u lie. this is how it'll go. You cheat. Get caught. LIE. things eventually get better. (now 1 of 2 things are GONNA HAPPEN @ this point) 1. u continue to cheat and LIE. and eventually get figured out. (pause ' to becontinued) 2. u never cheat again. but ur conscience eats @ ur soul and u soon feel so guilty that u spill the beans bcuz this person has only done right by u and it will only be right to tell. lol! okay STOP. NOW. With ALLLLLL of these events stated above. u RISK losing the other person. and if they are smart u most likely WILL lose them. LMAO js. but think about if The pro's and cons to Lying and Telling The Truth. If u LIE things will NEVER be the same as they were and you'll end up breaking up anyway. OR you'll have to keep on lying in order to keep that ONE lie straight. and then u godda REMEMBER EACH & EVERY LIE u told. bcuz the other person will NEVER forget. and if u fuck up anywhere inbetween ur lies. smh @ you. GOOD LUCK. lmaoo! OR once u FINALLY decide to tell the TRUTH you'll make the other person SOOOOOOOOOOOO SAAAALLLLLTY that they never forgive u for "LYING THIS WHOLE TIME!" lol and if they dont leave yo dumb ass. they'll NEVER get over it. and it will always be brought up in the smallest arguments. which will eventually lead to distrust and insecurity. and those who have experienced that shit KNOWS its the WORST shit EVER!!! nowwww if u decide to tell the truth in the beginning. yeaaa the other person MIGHT leave u. but ur chances of getting back with them and living "happily ever after" are MUCH GREATER! lmao! and if they do stay. it may even be MOTIVATION for them to get on top of their shit if ur reason for doing whatever u did was GOOD ENOUGH! lol!! ALSO the "GETTING OVER IT" rate is much higher. lol and you'll have much more credit for other fuck ups that are not as big. :]
Thank you guys for tuning in to my mind. I must go now. lol
my shoulder blades hurt. anddddd im about to do sum other shit. lol!
if u dont remember anything from this note.
REMEMBER THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE TRUTH WONT ALWAYS PLACE U WHERE U WANNA BE....BUT IT WILL SET YOU FREE!!!!!! :]
LMFAOOOOOO!!! LOL!

deuces.....
drizzzle